dislocation

Carefully preparing my whole life
for this adventure in healing,
I'm still suprised by the intensity
of feeling numb by separation.
Trying to sublimate inevitable
pain necessary to summon defenses,
I cry out to this weak body self
I shouldn't have pushed so far
beyond protected potential.
Needing to wait for remedy's
rigmarole therapy to down-load
this computed up-grade aggravates
visions of "what-if" scenarios
exorcising decisions made by others
until I understand my contribution
rests under standing relationships.
Between joint ventures' ligaments
alignment confinement confidence. .
Sensitivity developed allows greater
awareness of deeper connections.